50 different directions

My mind is so full these days. I guess when I think about the alternative, an empty mind I should not complain. It does seem as though my mind is continually going a million miles an hour in a million different directions. I am continually thinking of 50 different things about our adoption. What is my child doing in Ethiopia? Is he even born yet? (I subject that brings me to tears) I just have to say a prayer, give it to the Lord and move on. What is going on with our paperwork? Where is our paperwork? How long will we have to wait? Those are just my thoughts about adoption and then I move on to my children I already know. How will the adoption effect them? How are they doing? Am I being neglectful to my children with my mind so full? Sometimes all this thinking can just wear me out. I was so glad to talk to another Mama recently who has her little girl from China home. She assured me that my never ending thoughts are perfectly normal and will not even go away once we bring our little boy home, they will just change. So maybe someday I will lay down and actually be able to get to sleep without a million thoughts running through my head, but I guess in the meantime I will just be content with all these thoughts continually in my head. Until I bring my little boy home that is all I have.