I cannot believe we are already into week 2 of summer vacation!!! I am full speed ahead in my summer Theory class. The balance of the kids and school and work can be quite challenging! I am loving easing into the morning and not having to be up and get 3 kids ready to leave the house by 7:30. We are swimming, shopping, and eating. I cannot believe the amount of food my kids are consuming. Wow! I cannot imagine when they become teenagers.
Along with the fun of summer vacation come some challenges that are new to me in this journey of parenting. I know that with raising kids there will be many "bumps in the road". It is just when they come along out of nowhere that they throw me a little. While listening to praise music the other day, (Praise You in this Storm), I felt like I kind of had one of those "light bulb" moments. I will probably do a horrible job of putting this in words, but I just want to write it so I will not forget.
I keep praying for God to make this journey of parenting easy. I keep praying for Him to remove all the "bumps in the road", when He is telling me that is not His plan.
My plan is to have well behaved children, because of my hard work and parenting skills.
His plan is that I have children that love the Lord and become adults that love the Lord. There is nothing I can do to make "good kids". If they follow my example, they will quickly see my imperfections and see my inconsistencies. The only thing I can do is humbly show them a Good God. A God who is perfect, makes no mistakes and is never inconsistent.
My plan is to be SUPERMOM. Don't we all want to be viewed as having it all together? We earnestly want to be a great wife, mom, co-worker, etc etc and oh yeah as everyone tells us, don't forget to take time for yourself. (exactly when is a SUPERMOM suppose to fit this in?)
His plan is NOT for me to be a SUPERMOM. He wants me totally dependent on him (every day). He doesn't want me to avoid all the "bumps in the road" He wants to lead me through them, teaching me all the way. Oh! how I want to go around them, when He knows that is not the best plan for me. If I go around the bumps, then I do it on my on strength, and I tend to get way ahead of God, a place I do not want to be.
My plan is to do everything I can to control my children so they will not make mistakes. They, on the other extreme, are constantly trying to gain control. They are wanting more independence everyday. Some of M's favorite words are "let me do it" I guess we never stop saying that.
His plan is to teach us through our failures and mistakes to depend on Him. My heart knows that it is far better for God to be in control of my family's future than me, but just letting go of that control is a battle I fight daily.
My plan is to do everything in my power to protect my children from being hurt physically or emotionally.
His plan is to grow our character. As children or adults we sometimes do the most growing in times of difficulty and hurt.
As I am writing this my children are fighting in the background and I just have to smile, as I go to God in prayer. Almost every hour I am in prayer in the daily challenges of being at home with the kids. The blessings are thrown in too, but God wants it like that. He wants me to be in constant need of Him, just to make it through the day. To call on Him continually--to be in constant prayer. Wow! I never knew how He would use the challenges of motherhood to keep us in constant fellowship with Him. I am sure He knew that. It is all just part of His perfect plan and His desire of relationship with His children. I am so glad, I don't have to do this parenting journey alone. Although I doubt I will ever get to say that parenting is "easy" I have something better. I have the Creator of the Universe who loves my children more than I could ever imagine, leading me all along the "bumps in the road"...
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